I decided that I am foregoing my one word titles on here. It was a dramatic idea but really, a really long title can do just as much damage so why the hell not?!
I got engaged a week ago. Thank you. While I was getting ready for the big moment, I've been spending some time about how you get from one point to the other. and who is to blame? I'm going to spell out a timeline for you: here I am with my family that I have created. Alice, Sam and I living in our little house and having grand adventures. Wait, how did I get here? What exactly did I do to reach this moment? Let's see: having sam led from meeting alice which i got from working at my gym which never would have happened if i hadn't gone to maine which wouldn't have happened if i hadn't worked at the camp which wouldn't have happened if i hadn't sold books which wouldn't have happened if i hadn't gone to JMU which wouldn't have happened if i hadn't seen their marching band in ninth grade. it all comes down to ninth grade. that's when i started my life. interesting.
I found following this timeline really fun because I can trace it back so far! I guess that's why people are obsessed with genealogy and why I never had that luxury. I guess I had to find something to entertain myself.
I guess what I was thinking is that it isn't so much that I started at one point and arrived at another but that each point I arrived at, I had a choice to go one road or the other. I can look at each of these steps that I took and remember that I made those choices to go down that path and not the other one. When it comes to Maine, I was actually between that and Boston. But I felt that I wasn't ready for Boston and that Maine was a more comfortable approach. With Alice, I was at a point where I could pursue a relationship with her or stay in Prauge which I might still be had it not been for her. My Gym happened because I was in Maine but returning back to Maryland I was on the fence with either going full time in Columbia or pursuing a chance to teach English in Korea. I decided to stay close to my family and friends rather than live in a place where I potentially could have been completely isolated. These are the roads that I am talking about! You control your fate. I control my fate. It isn't written, we weren't destined to meet, I choose my path and I accepted the responsibilities that came with it. Could I be at a different place in my life? Absolutely! But it's not like a choose your own adventure where later on you can go back and read about the other path that you could've taken! This is your life and if you don't like it, change it again! We don't get to go back but work to changing the future. And while I look back I really enjoy tracing the path. But, I am not interested in grabbing the nearest time machine and changing certain events in my life (well maybe I wouldn't have bought that levatron from FAO Schwartz in high school...) but seriously, I am only interested in reminiscing about the good times. I love where I am at and I can't wait to see what lies ahead.
Couple of items of interest for you:
Decision Points
The Gift
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